Fragile Soul

I cant believe how much love I can have for something. Your sweet sweet face with freckled cheeks, big dimples, and beautiful smile gives me butterflies. You are so sweet and such a sensitive boy. You already wear your heart on your sleeve. I want to always protect you. Keep you innocent and happy. Do you remember in Redlands, bike riding, just me and you? You told me I was your "side-kick and best buddy". I want to always be that for you. You make me so proud to be your mother. I love you my beautiful sweet Steve-o.

adolecence the first soul crusher

Adolecence, is the first in a series of devastations to be felt through out life. Boys have it worse. Too old for G.I Joes, too young for just about everything else. Male bravado, surging horomones, a taste of freedom, a feeling of invincibility that cannot be lifted no matter what "we" try to tell them. Im forced to stand back. Let him learn, grow, hurt, wait... He challenges my every word, he's up, he's down, he "has all the answers" but at the end of the day, I dont give up, I love him, I love him more and more, I know just holding him when he feels defeated conveys the love I have for him. He is my soul mate, til death do us part.

Lifes a beach

And life is wonderful, amid all the chaos they create, I always come back to that same conclusion.

Family Bonding/ Moments of gratitude

So after reading "The Secret" I decided to start a gratitude journal with the boys. Tonight before there bedtime, we started it.
Nick is grateful for: 1.) For going to the doctor and getting a diagnosis today (ear infection).
2.) For Steve-o also seeing the doctor and getting a diagnosis as well (bronchitis).
3.) Being able to relax and play video games.
4.) Charlie his dog is healthy and alive.
Steve-o is grateful for: (In his own words)
1.) " I never died"
2.) " Its almost September, and I can be in kindergarten".
3.) "I will see myself get better".

Im so proud of them. I am grateful they are healthy boys, I have a boyfriend that is my best friend and treats me like a princess, and my Volkswagon Beetle. (The funnest car to drive) Oh also air conditioning. I remember being pregnant with Nick in the summertime with my little Honda Accord with no air conditioning. It is a luxury I will never take for granted.