adolecence the first soul crusher

Adolecence, is the first in a series of devastations to be felt through out life. Boys have it worse. Too old for G.I Joes, too young for just about everything else. Male bravado, surging horomones, a taste of freedom, a feeling of invincibility that cannot be lifted no matter what "we" try to tell them. Im forced to stand back. Let him learn, grow, hurt, wait... He challenges my every word, he's up, he's down, he "has all the answers" but at the end of the day, I dont give up, I love him, I love him more and more, I know just holding him when he feels defeated conveys the love I have for him. He is my soul mate, til death do us part.

Lifes a beach

And life is wonderful, amid all the chaos they create, I always come back to that same conclusion.

Family Bonding/ Moments of gratitude

So after reading "The Secret" I decided to start a gratitude journal with the boys. Tonight before there bedtime, we started it.
Nick is grateful for: 1.) For going to the doctor and getting a diagnosis today (ear infection).
2.) For Steve-o also seeing the doctor and getting a diagnosis as well (bronchitis).
3.) Being able to relax and play video games.
4.) Charlie his dog is healthy and alive.
Steve-o is grateful for: (In his own words)
1.) " I never died"
2.) " Its almost September, and I can be in kindergarten".
3.) "I will see myself get better".

Im so proud of them. I am grateful they are healthy boys, I have a boyfriend that is my best friend and treats me like a princess, and my Volkswagon Beetle. (The funnest car to drive) Oh also air conditioning. I remember being pregnant with Nick in the summertime with my little Honda Accord with no air conditioning. It is a luxury I will never take for granted.