He knew me before I became jaded. I loved him, he didnt love me, I ended up with his best friend who eventually broke my heart for the first time. I always wondered what if. 19 years after this photo was taken, we are together. I love him. I really do. I wish I never went through all the messes with past boyfriends. I loved before with everything I had and one by one, was let down. Male or female, if you had that lost look in your eyes, I would latch on so tight and spend so much energy fearing and awaiting the end, anticipating how it would all play out. I was certain it wouldnt be good. The result... Im callused on the outside, I dont feel as much. I dont do it on purpose, Im just that way. Its to bad because with all the pain I wont feel, I wont feel the true love either. I am a work in progress. I know if anyone deserves 100% of me, it is Tom. I have so much love and admiration for him. He brings me peace everyday, and I learn from him everyday. I am trying to let go of old wounds from all my past battles, and move forward giving my all to him and my children. Because in the end, he is the one who gave me my life back, and how can you repay someone for that?