Profoundly UnBuddhist Rant Part Dos

"The island will keep you if it wants you, The island will spit you back out if not"
- This guy that came up to me while I was sitting under a tree at the airport waiting to catch my flight back.







I had a lot of hours to kill at the airport so I sat under a tree journaling.

So this is downtown Lahaina. After an argument with my sister on the way to Black rock, I made my way here. By the way, Black rock was easy to find and so pretty.


This is Black rock, I listened to music, swam and layed out on the black rocks and thought about where I was going to stay the night since Christine and I were no longer on speaking terms and she was already back in Kiehei (very south) from where I was.

I had a few dilemma's. My cell phone charger was in the hotel room along with all my clothes, laptop, and I had about 35 bucks on me. So without going into all the details I will just show off my pics.

Dinner on a budget.

This is where I stayed. A "sober living" house that was 10 bucks to sleep outside on a couch. (sober living, it was not)

I stayed the night here. I left around 2 in the morning because I heard a fight with dishes crashing, I decided since I couldnt sleep after that I might as well try to make my way back to the hotel. I sat in a little cemetery til the sun came up then I took a bus to the next city Waaliea, then walked to Kiehei. I had no idea it would take me almost 6 hours to walk there.

By the way, I forgot to mention during all the chaos of being a homeless woman, I ran into Steveos 3rd grade teacher.

Profoundly UnBuddhist Rant Part 1

OH MY God!!!!! Look how beautiful Maui is. Totally worth the consequences of leaving on a whim, being completely broke, and not even properly packing due to the late notice. Oh well, Its Maui, a Free trip to Maui with my ummmm friend. To protect her identity, we will call her Christine.

Look how adorable this couple is. I hope that's me and Tom some day.




Awwww, even the dogs are happy to be here.

Okay, so I don't know these people but I had to photograph them anyway. She looked stunning, he looked a little scared.
Totally normal.



Wow we just witnessed a beautiful moment, I'm so happy. Hey Christine is it okay if we go back to the hotel you paid for? We should get a good nights sleep so we can see the giant Buddha statue I was telling you about, and then we can even snorkel where the cute little turtles are.

I'm so glad I could show you this Buddha statue. It is so amazing, and I love the trees surrounding it, there are pretty yellow flowers hanging off of them.

Picture time! Sometimes I wonder if her parents resent still having to payoff the thousands of dollars worth of student loans she racked up because "she had to go the the best most expensive private school to get her photography education" at. (only not to be a photographer)

This lady radiated sweetness. Pure. Genuine. Sweetness. Out of the blue, she came out from the little house on the Buddha property, to give Christine and I a flower from the tree.

Happy beautiful moment. Cant wait to see the turtles at Black Rock, this super beautiful area not known to be very crowded and perfect for beginner snorkelers just like us.

One last picture before we head out to Black Rock. The water was crystal clear and warm. I could not stop smiling.

What happened next can only be described as a complete cluster-fuck-disaster-of a mess that hit me like a ton of bricks. This is where I have difficulty. On the one hand, I want to take the high road. I don't mean to bad mouth Christine, it doesn't help the situation. I am still processing, obsessing, and accepting what happened. So, on the other hand, I have never felt so betrayed and hurt by someone I love. (well not to this extent) I can only hope time will ease the anger I have toward her. I dont want to feel hatred. Ever, but in all honesty, I dont know how I will ever forgive her for what she did. I cannot imagine where to even start to put the pieces together.

Anyway....

I am so glad that I had my camera and my journal in my purse. After I upload the pics from my phone I will post them and continue.

More Pagosa Springs

I got used to the storms that only last a few minutes, but it has been so long since I have heard thunder.

Roadtripping to Colorado

Last time I took the boys to Colorado, Steveo was 2 and Nick was 8. What a difference a few years make. Steveo appreciated the sights a little more than Nick. We stopped a few times in Arizona. First, Lake Havasu to see the London Bridge. (waste of gas) it was so small compared to the image I had in my mind, oh well. Then we stopped at a motel on Route 66. I loved it! The boys wanted 5 star hotels, I told them we are traveling hippie style and on a strict budget. We left our Motel early and headed to Pagosa Springs Colorado. I will never tire of the vastness of the greenery, and the fresh air. I am surrounded by beauty and cant wait to explore some more tomorrow.

my bulldog pillow

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She looks just like Princess Bellula.

I miss writing letters

he also makes a great paper weight.

Since the 6th grade me and Elizabeth have exchanged tons of letters. I miss her and when shes upset, I get upset. Unfortunately, living in separate states has made our visits less often but so enjoyable. I decided to hand make her a card with images that in someway or another remind me of her. All I can do is send good energy her way.

Nigel

I am a perpetual animal lover. I love this dog. He doesn't replace my Charlie, but his cuteness has cast a spell on me. I'm convinced he loves Tom more than me. He will love me soon when the Stockholm Syndrome takes effect.

Saturday

Enjoying the simple things, a much needed break from the long weekdays away from Tom.

today

Saturday drive to Redlands

me blissed out on perfect weather

Hello Cherry blossoms

beautiful church

odd stairway to a roof top with amazing view

Downtown has my favorite thrift shop "The Blues"

I do my best thinking when im driving or in the bath tub. Last Saturday it went from rainy cloudy dark skies to sunny and clear all within a couple of hours. I took pics all over downtown Redlands, one of my favorite spots.